A New Year Just Begun...
I've been on holiday for almost two weeks now (and my holiday is only two weeks long), though it's hardly been relaxing. But it seems so long ago that I was at work...I watched the New Year's fireworks with a few friends and my siblings, somewhere along the coast near Waverton. We had a great spot (not entirely surprising since we were there from 4pm), so it was by far the best view I've ever had of fireworks.
As for New Year's Resolutions? Well, I generally don't make any... not any in a specific sense... since I'm someone who tends to have vague goals in the back of my head (probably why I never achieve anything much). However, I do know that this year I want to grow in my walk with Christ - to truly experience His love and to leave all my worries and anxieties to Him.
I've realised that I'm a person who is always struggling for control, to be in control. Ironically, I've never really been in control at all - my life has always flowed from one phase or event to the next without much in the way of planning on my part. Eventually I realised that God had been leading me to Him. Still, I want to be in control, but on the other hand, I like a laid back approach. No wonder I'm such a confused fellow... I contradict myself half the time. I term this having a 'simultaneously conflicting personality'.
My point? No idea, except that somehow God has kept me safe and somewhat sane through my ineptitude and foolishness. How amazing is that?
I hope that everyone's New Year has been an enjoyable and restful one in preparation for the year ahead. Take care.
posted by Son @ 23:51
2 Comments:
Like you, I want control greatly over my life (mainly due to my need for security) however God has never let me have control.
I have come to realise He has made it be like that so that I learn this:
That I do not control my life because inherently it is not my own - it is God's. He is in control - and because I do not have control but He does, He is the only one I can trust and turn to. And when we do that, we reap the best for our lives (and I do not mean best in that we get happiness, but we are fulfilled - God's way - we know the truth about life and the future, and we are changed for the better because of it, and made more like His Son... which is ultimately the best anyway, even though we may 'lose' at face value.
Its funny isn't it... we never learn to trust God until we are humbled to our knees in absolute confusion, loss or uncertainty... well, i find its been like that for me - that I've had to be pushed to the point where I really have no where to turn or know what else to do but to find our Heavenly Father.
God works in funny ways... but I love that :)
hehe... thanks Jenny. That was my point, but you've managed to put it far more eloquently than I did =) I've been struggling to speak with a high level of coherence lately... don't know why... brain meltdown perhaps? Old age? =P hahaha...
Yeah, I'm so glad God is control of everything, because if everything were left to me, it'd be a big mess!
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