Why am I up?
haha, less than 24 hours between posts... just to keep you on your toes ;PSlept at about 1.45am last night/this morning and found myself awake before 7.00am. After unsuccessfully trying to sleep for a while I got up at about 7.15am. Speaking generously that's five and a half hours sleep. Doh. I was tired yesterday too and had set the alarm for 9.00am this morning. Oh well.
Yeah, anyway, fortunately my friend lets me use his computer, so here I am =)
Let's talk about plans. You know, the ones where you try and figure out all the possible variations, cover all the contingencies and ultimately have every scenario mapped out? Well, let me tell you that no plan is bulletproof, soundproof or watertight. No, this isn't something new to me, because I like to plan up to a point, but am happy to wing it where necessary or possible (not a recommended tactic for exams!). Besides, I figure I might as well live up to my Chinese name and go where the river of life flows.
Where does God fit into all this? I think God is constantly showing me time and time again that HE is in control - that for all my planning, worries and anxiety, I can't predict the future and expect everything to pan out the way I want them to. He draws me close to Him by helping me let go of the things that I think are secure - whether it be money, success, my own abilities, or relationships, or anything else that I rely upon to feel secure - so that I may trust to hold onto Him. This can be a painful process because I'm an independent person and like to do things MY way.
Ok, now I realise that perhaps I might be giving people the wrong impression when I say "go with the flow" - that's just how life's kind of panned out, where I've sort of bumbled through all sorts of situations and by God's grace have got through in one piece. All I'm saying is this - you can and should plan for things, and put effort into achieving goals that you have set yourself (setting Godly goals), but trusting in your own plans and efforts is foolhardy. I've found that God has lead me through situations in ways more beneficial that I could have imagined - He really does know what's best for me, even if I'm anxious all the way.
Almost time to get ready for the wedding ceremony. How exciting! =)
posted by Son @ 08:29
4 Comments:
sorry havent been visiting that much either,.. cos i dont use my portal much these days heeh
anyway
it's lovely to see that u have been thinking a lot again and putting things into action..
like how u say that u dont just go with the flow, but u plan and follow it thru AND trusting God all the way!
it reflects my present state :)
Hi Vincy!
I find that things just sort of "happen" around me even though I don't have complicated plans... that's what I meant by "going with the flow", as opposed to doing nothing and just waiting.
Nice to have you drop by =)
what an encouraging post Son :)
I have to apologise for not visiting either... heck, ive even neglected my own blog in the midst of the hurriedness and hectiness since coming back... I havent had time to recover yet so I think in about a week or two, you will start to see the regularity in my life come back with things like blogging, emailing, commenting, etc all becoming more regular (I hope)... of course, like you say, God can change all our plans and make ourlife unpredictable as a result!
Strange what post arises from an early morning =P
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