Emotional hangover
For some reason I just felt flat today. My cold is almost gone, and the weekend was enjoyable - the wedding was beautiful, and I caught up with a number of friends. Yet, I'm not feeling so good today. Monday-itis? No, I don't think so.I guess I tend to come across as solemn, serious, sad or whatever, but today, I really felt it. Perhaps it's the aftereffects of the joyous occasion that is a wedding, or perhaps I just need to eat some more chocolate... which reminds me that I have some in the fridge...
I'll leave you with one of Jewel's earlier songs. The lyrics don't really fit my situation, but the mood of the song speaks to me (and no, I haven't been listening to it, but it's one of my favourites - there's a beautiful, understated tone of sadness that endears it to me).
You Were Meant For Me - Jewel
I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
I got my eggs and my pancakes too
I got my maple syrup, everything but you.
I break the yolks, make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
Never put wet towels on the floor anymore' cause
(Chorus:) Dreams last for so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
I called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So I picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad
It made me miss you oh so bad 'cause
(Chorus)
I go about my business, I'm doin fine
Besides what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken, everyday.
I brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick a book up. Turn the sheets down.
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight 'cause
(Chorus)
Yeah.... You were meant for me and I was meant for you.
posted by Son @ 22:08
10 Comments:
Sorry about not offering words of comfort at this stage. I couldn't think of any... I think posting what I'm about to post may be considered as insensitive to your needs / unhelpful. But anyway, here we go.
Maybe I misinterpreted things, but... I don't think chocolate should be seen as a cure to a sad state. Well, not on repeated occassions anyway. It may temporarily make you happy, but what if one day you were really really depressed, and had become reliant on the chocolate to give you a slight boost in morale/mood? Then you would pig out on chocolate. And then chocolate makes you unhealthy, fat, and slow. And that affects the way you view your self and the way others view you. And so you'll have even less contact with them, even lower self esteem, and then eat even more chocolate. Etc.
I do hope I misinterpreted your comment on chocolate...
Man Sam, you would hate to meet me then. I'm a chocoholic!
I depend on Chocolate like I depend on air...
No maybe not that drastic.. but I pig out on chocolate almost every single day, heck I guzzle it down like water...ask Yelitte he knows!
o.O
Well I do agree with the whole shouldn't be used to temporarily make you happy comment. It's like using alcohol or some sort of drug... addictive and terrible for you, and they only serve to make you more 'depressed' in the end, because you depend on them to get you by the days.
^_^ Nice song by the way Son, bittersweet... but I like the mood of the words- even if I haven't heard the song- well I don't think I have...
haha, whoops, that's not quite what I intended by the chocolate comment . I was just joking =) I do get more cravings for chocolate and sweet things when I'm down, but it doesn't mean I start scoffing lots down. I just like chocolate in general. Plus, I don't think it really has any effect on my mood.
I'm feeling better today anyway, so thanks guys =)
mmm...chocolate.... im deprived of good chocolate here u know? Malaysian choc sucks (excuse my language) - but they must use different milk or cocoa or something cos it all tastes off. Even the cadbury here must be some cheap rip-off from the real cadbury... I bet u guys dont believe me so I'll bring some back to Syd and let u try... yuck yuck. haha..
Oh btw, i love that Jewel song :)
I wish she had written more stuff like that instead of going haywire with that pop album of hers - *sigh* the case of 'money more important than music'.
p/s: Since u like chocolate - have u been to the Lindt cafe in Martin Place yet Son?
I believe you Jen. I've tasted dodgy chocolate before (not in Malaysia... might have been Beijing... can't remember), and it's just not the same.
I like a couple of songs from her pop album, but I do prefer the other albums. I'm not convinced though that it was done just for money. Will see what the next one is like, but I think each album has been different, so it might be her trying something different each time.
hehe... guess where we're going on when I see you Jenny! Lindt cafe! I haven't had a chance to go there yet.
hrm, lindt cafe... it's good for a once off place I think, but it's rather too expensive and too much cocoa- so it makes the chocolate drinks at least to taste grainy... sweets there are alright I guess- we only tried the little snacks.
I'd suggest to go to Max Brennar... I'm an absolute addict on that stuff, it's another chocolate cafe in Sydney. And the chocolate there is smooth, creamy, sweet and all in all delicious!
Plus it's not as expensive as Lindt cafe...^_^ Go there and I guarantee you'll love it, Suckao is always a good choice as well... really good hot chocolate... waffles with strawberries are just as good.
I empathise with you Jenny, I don't think I could survive without good chocolate at my disposal! Maybe we could smuggle chocolate for you :P
Grainy = texture =P hahaha.. actually, I've been to Max Brennar a few times, and last time I had a while chocolate drink that was very nice, and actually had a grainy texture.
Yeah you must have gotten the cold drinks, they're like that but Lindt has more of that cocoa, it contains too much cocoa rather than well chocolate.
Max Brennar suckao's are really good, when you go there next try it! and I guarantee it's not grainy :P
Well, I quite liked the graininess of the drink, and I've probably tried the suckao before (since I've been there a few times). I do like Max Brenner, but I'm not going to pass judgement on Lindt before trying it first.
oh we are going to lindt cafe with Jenn? COOOL!! hahaa.. i promised another friend I would go there with him.... its a wager I lost that I have to hold up.. hahaa, he'd be unimpressed knowing i went there without him :P Anywaysss... I agree, Max Brennar is NIIICCCCE... and its only in Chatswood! hehe..
Btw, Ling, I have smuggled in Chocolate from Australia to Malaysia before.. Tim Tams, and Lindt dark chocolate... but u know what I miss? Those HUGE chocolate dipped strawberries that u only get from DJs or eastern suburb/city gourmet stores :)
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