If I could tell you now...
...I would. But alas, I cannot. And so, for now, this silence must continue for I know not what to say.
Here I wait patiently, until inspiration sings once more. Will you wait with me too?
Sydney et al
A few thoughts, in no particular order:
- Sydney has been on my mind. I had decided earlier this year to stay in Canberra until the end of the year, and then to re-evaluate. The reasons were fairly straightforward, and still hold:
1) A commitment to the church I'm going to. A commitment to those I have befriended her, and to my housemates.
2) A chance to settle into my new home - to see if this more stable environment would help me grow (thus far what actually has happened is a long list of tasks - of things "to do" that are increasing rather than decreasing). Linked to this is being here to finish off the few things left for the house to be "complete" (mostly it means landscaping, a pergola and some outdoor tiling).
The thought of moving back to Sydney had not really occupied my mind last year, but, over the last several months I have become more and more convinced that I will move back. The question has thus become: when? The only thing I can foresee that will keep me in Canberra for the long term is finding a Canberran wife. The reasons I believe I will move back at some point are:
1) My friends in Sydney. I do miss them from time to time.
2) The Christian support I have in Sydney, because of my Christian friends there.
3) I'm struggling to work in a "desk job". I don't have the skills or experience for something in a creative field, but perhaps I could run a small business or something. Sydney is more logical for this.
4) This is a little embarrassing, but, considering that I would like to get married (and have a family), I think it's more likely in Sydney. Canberra I think is a nice place to raise a family, but it's a bit hard to have children without a wife.
Those are the main factors anyway. The big thing for me at the moment though is my job - it's a decent job, but I don't think I could continue in it over the medium and long term. I know that work is supposed to be labour - it's not supposed to be easy. But, I'm worried that the lack of enthusiasm and interest I have will adversely impact on my ability to do a good and proper job. I guess it already has had an impact, which is not good at all, but in the longer term it will be truly untenable.
- I watched "V for Vendetta" last night. It was a very interesting and thought-provoking movie, and I would recommend it. Though I don't agree with all of the ideas or values that it supported it is one of the best movies I have seen.
- Also last night, I went to a Japanese restaurant called Iori. With five others we shared: two different dishes of wagyu beef, assorted tempura, tempura softshell crab, teriyaki fish, and salmon (can't remember what the dish was was called). Dessert was greentea mousse, with lychee and jelly. They also have greentea cheesecake. As many of my friends know, I love Japanese food, and the food last night was very good… I was quite satisfied at the end of the meal =)
- I need to "action" things in order to clear out my inbox. It's been worse, but 50 odd emails still need to be dealt with (I used to keep it quite clear, with just a few items in the inbox and everything else filed away in folders).
- I need to file probably a hundred or more bits of paper… I haven't done any filing (at home) for more than half a year…
- Weddings are expensive, not just for the couple, but for guests too. I can imagine well connected people with a lot of friends finding themselves spending a very large amount on gifts and related expenses. I'm not complaining though - I love weddings… and I'm not that well connected =P It seems like my generation of friends is getting well into the swing of things though… because my first wedding (of people roughly my age) was last December, and by next January there will have been six. I know people who get "wedding fatigue" from having weddings seemingly every month >.< Fortunately I'm not at that point (and am unlikely to) and am still very excited by it all. How I feel about things when I'm 30+ and single is another question… sitting at a restaurant surrounded by coupled friends is not something I want to comtemplate =P
- One of my housemates the other day: "You have a lot of girly things" >.<
- Speaking of housemates, I've had three for just over a month now. Can't remember if I mentioned this fact before, so there you have it =) Is a bit strange to be living with people again, especially three other people. For one, I'm finding myself talking more.
- I'm getting my other upper wisdom tooth out tomorrow (the other one was removed a few weeks ago).
